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I think a lot about conversations I had with T. When my message was based on facts and straight forward, but he wasn’t open to receiving it. I think about how I can learn to adjust my tone and the delivery of the message with care and compassion so that even when it is a hard truth, it is not off-putting.
My last messages with my little brother for a month from August 25th, 2021. Until September 22nd, 2021, I sent him information about jobs and housing. I remember our conversation on the 22nd of September. He was calling to see if I could email him a copy I had of his resume. I have always been the gatekeeper. When he called me and we talked, I told him, “Bro, you have a skill set that could take you to the next level.” I am not sure how or why you learned to live or be content with having nothing or begging for what you need. I understood that he enjoyed cooking and being a chef.
I couldn’t wrap my mind around living a life struggling when your natural gifts, your skill set, and your abilities could put you in a position to live comfortably and let cooking be a hobbie. I know he was listening, I don’t know that he could hear me because of my tone and delivery. Even when I said “Bro you’re smart, you have the skills you could get a job and make good money and live a different life.” At the end of the call, I remember saying I know it will happen when you’re ready. When you make your mind up, you have what it takes to do better.
It’s still a learning process about how to say thing things without being harsh. Even if I felt I wasn’t being harsh or mean at the time. He wasn’t receptive to the delivery. I know what happened is not my fault. But there are things I wish I could change, that would have change the course of his life.
Rest Easy Lil Bro, love you, and miss you so much. Never imagined this life without you.
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I have been waiting to form my thoughts around this letter before I posted it. There has been so much choas going on around me. I just realized that I haven’t been in tune with myself and am pretty much running on automatic. I think about my little bro all the time, but I haven’t had those moments where I break down or just somewhere, and tears start to run down my face.
This is a letter Thomas wrote to our Mom. He was facing a challenge at the time. 💕
Back in the day when we were young! 
Mom and Son!🩵🤍💙 Miss you, T.
W.W. T Fultz 💜💜💜
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Think back on your most memorable road trip.
My son and I rode to New Orleans, Louisiana, for Mardi Gras. He was approximately 7 at the time, and he stayed awake the whole trip there. On the way back after partying all weekend, he slept the whole trip. We had a good time.
I enjoy road trips, and when I read the prompt, the first to come to mind is the impromptu trip my Lil Bro and I took to Galveston,TX, for Labor Day weekend 2013. I know I already wrote about that in the blog. That was a fun weekend with family.
In 2014, I drove solo 12 hours to ATL for my best friends Bachelorette party. It was a fun weekend. Drove solo 3 hours to Paris, Tx for the wedding as well.
I’m trying to think of all the road trips I’ve taken. It’s probably too many to write about. I used to be down to jump in the vehicle and ride out anywhere. Many trips to Dallas as well as Houston, Tx.
I drove 17 hours straight to North Carolina to report to duty in VA. I stayed a weekend in NC and traveled the last 5 hours to VA a few days later. Had to get some vehicle repairs during that weekend stay as well. The 17 hours straight was the longest I have ever driven.
I have bn researching road trips. I’m looking at trips 4,6, and 8 hours away. I’ll be sure to come back to write about them after the adventures.
XOXO
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What could you do differently?
There are probably nameless things I could do differently. These are the first two that come to mind when I consider being intentional about all things this year and accomplishing goals.
There is usually time when I am motivated and focused, and it gradually fades. With discipline the same. There is a time when I am determined and doing the things I plan to do, and then the motivation gradually fades, and I lomger do the things I know I need to do to accomplish goals.
I’ll try to do these things differently…
Push Pass Your Limitz! 