The picture above is one of my favorites. We frequently went to Haze. I think on this night Thomas and I got front and back seat concert. Lee performed Rhianna’s Diamonds in the passenger on the ride home.
We were always deep in Haze. T and I saw Mystikal in Haze in February 2014. These memories make me miss my little brother even more. When I think about all the good times we had and the fun. These are the things I wish we could still be doing and hanging out together. Like UGK said One day, you’re here, and the next day, you’re gone.”
We pulled up to Haze deep with family after a reunion one year. It was the place to be. T was my best friends and I often felt like he was my son. I know we were only 4 years apart, but we looked out for each other. My guy! I miss Thomas a lot and every day. I had a moment yesterday where I almost broke down. I don’t remember what the trigger was, I remember just kind of trying to shake it off and snap out of. I can feel it still building up, although I know at any moment I will break down. 🤍💙🩵
The memories remind me that we can have many experiences in a year. I am also reminded how fast the years are going. It’s been 5 years since we attended that concert in 2019, and Thomas has been gone for about two and a half of those. Time waits for no one. I’m feeling that during grief, we continue to go through the motions, and we have to learn to live all over again. Our favorite saying is You Only Live Once (YOLO), T had this tattooed on his ribs. If we only get one life to live, we want to make it the best one. These memories also tell me that even when we were low and didn’t think we were living or didn’t feel like we were enjoying life, we were making the best of circumstances at the time and still making memories.